i need......a knife...badly.....a blunt one please...(second day of exam)

(how....do i start....)

12.30pm..exam started...
12.15..still walking to college hall..
12.27pm.."you may begin your exam now"...

4 questions..in one hour 30 mins...
1.03pm..considered finished my paper...
looked back the questions...mostly..i was just staring at the paper...blankly..kononnya wana check back...=,=

(thinking blindly.......throughout da exam...)
let's just say...i din know wat to answer...i din know how to do...i was simply putting answers...simply calculating...my mind was blank...i din know wat i was doing...i had no confidence at all for my answers...i din even dare to have confidence for my answers..everything i did...was jst shooting blindly...
1.53pm..(thinking back what i did...) "this is wrong man...this is so wrong..." "fuck up fuck up fuck up fuck up" all the way..
"i need.....a knife.......a blunt one please...."

2pm exam finished...
vivian: (stared at me) how was it??
me: (stared back at her..trying to steal a lil smile..) i want a knife......
vivian: heheheheh
(okay students..u can leave the hall now..remember to take your ID card and handphones..)
robson: wen hon..how was it??
me: I WANT A KNIFE AH!!!!!! I WANT!!!! hahh hahh hahh =( !!!!
robson: i want a knife first ah!! after i kill myself den u take my knife and kill yourself okay..
(AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

reading da notes...trying to remember da formulas i've written...but....blank....
joseph: oi..wat's wrong??like dead only..
me: i wish im dead....=,=

right before i entered da college hall...
sim yee: goh!!! jia you!!smile abit leh..goodluck..we fail together.. =D
2.40pm..another exam started..
i asnwered the questions 'smoothly'..as in..as usual...tembak tembak tembak...skipped skipped skipped...finally..
2.35pm.. "students..you have another 5 minutes.."
(FUCK YOU!!!!!)
rushed rushed rushed...apparently..i wasnt the only one rushing...
(fucking hell...so lil time..)
as the lecturers were collecting da papers from da front...slowly...it was my turn..
(jeswynna stood beside me..waiting..smiling..)
me: er...(passed the paper..and smiled back at her)

"okay students..you can leave da college hall now.."

(AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!)
(FUCK!!!!!!!!!!AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!)
was yelling all the time...whining...all the way..

the end....