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Jag says (9:12 PM):
ahaah
why
gwh.. says (9:12 PM):
FUCK MY UNI LIFE!!!!!
JAG!!!
gwh.. says (9:13 PM):
I'VE BEEN BUSY SINCE FUCKING LAST WEEK!!! THIS WEEK IS DA WORST!!!! 2MOLO FUCKING TEST!!!!!!
SOOOO FUCKING MANY ROCKS AND PROPERTIES TO MEMORISE!!!!!!
FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!
FUCK YOU TOO!!!!!
AND WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!
I FUCKING WANA STUDY!!!!THIS FUCKING WEEKEND!!!
gwh.. says (9:14 PM):
I GOT FUCKING COMPETITION!!!!!!
FUCKING FRIDAY 2MOLO IS DA FUCKING WORST!!!!!
SUPPOSED TO ENJOY!!!!! FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!
Jag says (9:14 PM):
lol same here goh
got test tomorrow also

gwh.. says (9:14 PM):
I WANA GO BOULEVARD TO HAVE MY FUCKING BUBBLE MILK TEA AND ARCADE!!!!!
Jag says (9:14 PM):
bubble teaaaaaaaaa
gwh.. says (9:14 PM):
FUCKING 4PM GOT FUCKING PRESENTATION!!!
Jag says (9:14 PM):
ahahahahahah
gwh.. says (9:15 PM):
AND FUCKING 6PM GOT FUCKING MIXED DOUBLES!!!!
AND I HAVENT FUCKING WASHED MY CLOTHES!!!!!
HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO PLAY WITHOUT MY CLOTHES!!!!!
I GOT NO FUCKING PANTS!!!!!!
Jag says (9:15 PM):
lol play naked
i bet you'll win

gwh.. says (9:15 PM):
AND IT'S FUCKING RAINING LATELY!!!!!!
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH
Jag says (9:16 PM):
dryer lo
gwh.. says (9:16 PM):
I GOT NO FUCKING DRYER!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHH
IM SUPPOSED TO FUCKING ENJOY 2MOLO!!!!!!!!!
WHY THE FUCK!!!!!DO I HAVE TO GO THRU ALL THAT!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHH
Jag says (9:19 PM):
WEI
GOH
THIS IS UNI LIFE
GET USED TO IT BITTTTTTTTTTCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
GOH
I'M LISTENING TO METAL
AND I'M QUITE ENJOYING IT
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
gwh.. says (9:19 PM):

bad time getting sick in miri..=_=

gwh.. says (10:38 PM):
haha
gwh.. says (10:39 PM):
i jst got sick today..
fucking hell..
u wouldnt believe this..
it all started last night..
erm..ya know...lately..im like having slight flu..
and..last night..i was blowing my nose kinda hard..
and...instantly my left side of ear went partially deaf..
gwh.. says (10:40 PM):
i thought it was nth la..can jst go away in few days..
den i was skyping with ker huei..
den..about 3am like dat i slept..
den..
fucking 5.20am..i woke up..my ear was fucking pain..
felt like...under pressure.. and daamn pain..
i couldnt sleep...
gwh.. says (10:41 PM):
i was sitting there, tahaning da pain for like...hours..
den...about..7.30am i went out to jog..(which i've never done dat in soooo long and my first time jogging in curtin..)
gwh.. says (10:42 PM):
all because of my fucking ear..
i was thinking..prolly..if i jog,my body moves up and down, prolly might help..
but..fucking hell..din work at all..
gwh.. says (10:43 PM):
i couldnt do anything about it..
bathed, den i was reaaaly fucking tired..
even though da pain was really hurting..
good thing is..
gwh.. says (10:44 PM):
when i woke up, less pain..
and...it's like a sign of feeling better..
den..my frend came in, dat's how i woke up..
den...it was about 11.15am dat time..
gwh.. says (10:45 PM):
and..i was really thinking..whether should i go see a doc..
i was thinking of going to hospital..to find a speacialist..
gwh.. says (10:46 PM):
da thing is...this is my first time having such serious thing..
all da while, when i had flu, and i blew my nose..they went deaf alil.. but not as serious as this before..
gwh.. says (10:50 PM):
during lunch, it felt better...dat's why at first i was thinking to wait til 2molo.. see whether gona be better or not..
gwh.. says (10:51 PM):
but..on second thought..i'd better get my ear checked..
so..called a cab, went to town to see a doc, recommended by my fren..
gwh.. says (10:52 PM):
well..obviously not alone la..
my frend accompanied me..
gwh.. says (10:53 PM):
ok..
here's da best part..
gwh.. says (10:54 PM):
went into da clinic.. daaamn many ppl queuing up..
ok..so...i went to da receptionist, gave my IC
gwh.. says (10:55 PM):
and..waited for my turn...
gwh.. says (10:56 PM):
while waiting..we saw a post..saying.. "specialist visit on nose, ear, throat by dr. dunowho.."
on 14th may
my frend said..
gwh.. says (10:57 PM):
"why pain so early..pain in another 2 weeks, den you'll get to see a specialist la.."
haha!! true dat..
ok..so..finally it was my turn..
here's da freaking best part..
took a sit..
I don wanna...... says (10:58 PM):
lol continue
gwh.. says (10:58 PM):
and told every detail to him...
while i was telling..
guess what was he doing..
gwh.. says (10:59 PM):
jotting down all da details in da freaking monitor..
yes..i mean...a freaking touch screen monitor..
i was kinda surprised by that..
damn high tech right..
where as look at KL..
gwh.. says (11:00 PM):
i've never seen any clinic using dat technology.. wtfff
ok..so..finally when he examined my ear..
gwh.. says (11:01 PM):
he connected this ear camera to da monitor..and placed it into my ear..
and WOW....for da freaking first time...I COULD ACTUALLY SEE WTF IS INSIDE MY EARRR
CLEARLY!!!!!
ok..back to comparison with KL ones..WHERE THE FUCK GOT DOCTORS SHOWING PATIENTS LIKE THAT!!
gwh.. says (11:02 PM):
"er...so what's your prob.. bla bla bla..oookay...*writes writes writes* er...*starts asking again* bla bla bla..
examine body parts.. "mmm..ookay..yea i see what's da prob"
gwh.. says (11:03 PM):
yea..YOU SEE WHAT'S DA PROB!! where as THAT DOCTOR LET US SEE WHAT'S DA PROB!!
gwh.. says (11:04 PM):
and he was explaining to me quite detailed everything in my ear..
omggg
gwh.. says (11:05 PM):
he was comparing la..my left and right..my right was fine..bla bla bla... den when he was showing my left ear, it's kinda reddish..and........i duno..uglier than my right side..and so...that was da infection..
gwh.. says (11:06 PM):
den he took this (whatever they call it i cant remember.. where we used to play with it in science class in high sch... it's like a U shape..hit it, vibrate, make sound)
gwh.. says (11:07 PM):
yea..he hit it, placed beside both my ears..and compared..and..asked which side better..
bla bla bla..
gwh.. says (11:08 PM):
and writing more things in da monitor, den he said it's nth serious.. it's jst external infection or smth like dat..
gwh.. says (11:09 PM):
i was sooo relieved when i heard dat it's nth serious.. and he said after few days, it'll be recovered..
gwh.. says (11:10 PM):
oookay..
gwh.. says (11:11 PM):
actually i wanted to ask more..but...what happened was...
gwh.. says (11:13 PM):
there's this nurse, with gloves..came in from another room...i was thinking..wouldnt it be scary if there's blood.. well..i din see it..
gwh.. says (11:14 PM):
den da nurse was saying smth like..injection bla bla bla..couldnt understand their language..and kinda wanted da doc's help..and so...da other nurse told me to go out..and..i couldnt ask..
gwh.. says (11:15 PM):
so..while waiting to take my medicine, my frend asked me whether did i see da blood on da nurse's gloves earlier..
gwh.. says (11:16 PM):
i said i was actually trying to look for it..but..couldnt see.. he said got!! at da tip of da gloves..smth like dat..
so..dat's why i couldnt see..
gwh.. says (11:17 PM):
anyway.. finally took my medicine..and waited damn long for da cab to come..
ok..ya know wat..im gona cut short..
gwh.. says (11:18 PM):
came back to my room..couldnt tahan..took a nap..and dat was when i felt my body was daamn weak..and i felt really sick..
and...i suspected myself having fever..cuz of da infection..
ok...im sick..
fuck..
HAHAHAH!!
omgg
im sooo sorry, ah yan..
im actually typing my blog post here..
hahaha
sorry keep spamming you..
gwh.. says (11:19 PM):
and yes..... i had no inspiration to blog at all..but cuz of what happened and especially da doc's high tech thingy..made me wana blog about it.. =_=
im gona copy and paste this..
haha

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

WOOOHOOO!!!
this year's chinese new year made me go :

- omg!! don't make me bathe again!! it's sooo hot!!

- oh damn.. I'm so full, yet I'm eating again.. =_=

- oh sweet!! I love my grandma's homemade potato chips!! Can't keep my hands off them!!

- omg.. can somebody take me out!! I'm bored to death!!


yes..basically, it was a typical chinese new year.. and.... it happens to me EVERY YEAR.. =P

HOWEVER!!!

haihh..... it was quite a different chinese new year to me this year.. because... :

- Valentine's day happened to be on the same day with first day of cny.. and........ hehe..

- it was the shortest cny to me.. it felt like... i only enjoyed for 2-3 days, despite the days i stayed in Ipoh for almost a week..

- didn't collect hung pao's as many as last year's..

- the thought of getting busy with all the errands I had to do in KL.. was.....sick.. =_=

- I was being 'ugly' on the phone... haha..


came back on thursday(chor 5) and....started all the extreme hectic days...

oh well...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!
RAWRRR BABY RAWRRR!!!

I'm dead end...

it's so pain to cry...

fuck my life...
fuck my fate...

fuck everything I'm going through now...
fuck everything of me...

fuck TODAY...

fuck EVERYTHING...

FUCK MY FATE...

FUCK MY LIFE...

desire...

define desire.....
define...

desire...
probably doesn't exist..
desire...
is something I can't reach...
desire...
is blank...

define...desire.....