just...my expressions...

Just so you know that..i've posted quite some....songs there... yes...you can call me emo boy..or..wat ever -mo la... i admit dat...i was once broken-hearted... i was in deep love before.... but..getting together.....i dun think dat actually happened.... look..da reason im posting this..is not because i'm trying to bring back 'something'....or trying to touch anyone's feelings...but i'm doing this is because.... i just feel like telling and..expressing my thoughts lately...in a way..to help my frends or those ppl who were once like me too...

I have frends who were once broken-hearted too...i want them to know that..what they're going through...is as normal as this earth is rotating in its orbit.. in fact..i feel glad and...comfortable to tell them..as..it might be a way to make them realise that they're not the only one to feel this way...i once gone and still going through this so called 'problem'....but...i can say dat..i'm not as 'serious' as my frends...as..i'm totally, completely, 100% over my past... getting over the past doesnt mean that i cant reminisce those days right... in fact..reminiscing them...is not something that i can control... sometimes..what we see..what we do...and especially what we hear...are da factors...

Songs..are always.....all da time... reminding me of those days...honestly...i was soooo sure that i'd gotten over the past...that i 'declared' it myself... i'm having a new great life with my new frends in college...and..still knowing more of them... but...there were many times that..i still cried badly after listening to....songs....meaningful and memories-bringing songs... actually..i did not expect myself to cry again cuz of the reason...but...it's out of my expectation... and i'm very glad that..this 'problem' is quickly 'fading'... but of course..i cant gurantee for what's gonna happen in the future...

I admit..lately...i've been kinda emo....not really enjoying myself...it was quite obvious of me..that my frends were asking me what's wrong... dun ask me anymore....i really really have no idea for why i was feeling like dat all of a sudden.. one thing for sure..it's not because of this 'problem'.... it's da feeling that leads to this 'problem'...

Somehow...whenever i listen to those nostalgic songs...i feel....comfortable...and...as if...i was 'alive' back in those days... it was da 'pain'..da 'torture' dat made me feel dat.....my life was there...existed...whenever i do that...i wasnt forced to...i listen..willingly...and with desire... honestly...those days..were hell... but after i'd gotten over it...thinking back.....i do have da 'missing' feeling... i do miss the presence... i do miss those 'busy' days....i do miss those eye tearing days... and most of all...i do miss...the pain...
jokingly..i'd like to say that...i love girls who can make me 'suffer'...and 'bleed' nonstop...all the time..i'd dare to say that...this 'way'...is to prove that our love has existed before......
honestly...who knows that...i would really love girls who can 'torture' me like that...

Recently..my frend..asked me this ques..."goh...when u see da couples right...do u feel anything ah??like...terasa like dat..." "no..i dun feel anything at all...why sudenly ask like dat??u feel smth??" "yea...like...i miss the 'presence' la.."
let me say this once again...it's NORMAL to feel that way... (yes T*****..i'm talking about you..haha!!)

After all these..i hope...readers out there do not mistaken with THREE things...
first.. I DO NOT MISS ANYONE FROM THE PAST ANYMORE.. (this is old case)
second.. I DO NOT HAVE ANY INTENTIONS TO HURT ANYONE WHO READS THIS..
third.. I'M NOT EMO OR SAD ABOUT MY PAST AT ALL.. I'M JUST SHARING WHAT I FEEL..

Thank you..